2am just now recieved msg from cousin 

my nenek pass away, i at first thought she doing april fool because i visited nenek last sunday and she okok

so i called her back and she said its true

i go out of my room, saw my dad with my mum

wanted to say something, nothing come out

felt so noob so damn noob

went back to sleep but in the end i sat in front of facebook until donoe wad time, cannot sleep

pon sch

8 am after breakfast went couzins house

my dad was brave, he did not cry until after looking at her

i did not even dare to look at her

blew my last chance to look at my grandma

again felt noob, pawned etc etc 

stayed there for a while until after solat mayat

then go follow my dad go grave

2pm after burial went back for kenduri

thanks to all relatives frens and others who came